I walked outside the street and while walking it started raining. Normally I would find a shelter from the rain but this time, somehow the falling of the rain felt different..I felt it comforting. Why do I feel that I have two feelings between us? When they tell me that I did a good decision of leaving you and that I am a brave and intelligent girl somehow it lifts up my dignity. But whenever we are together despite all the problems and differences why do I always feel ready to forgive and forget? Ever since I left I know every one who knows us have their own say with our relationship. Some are blaming you and some are blaming me for ruining something..something that they were unsure of and in the first place, they wanted to destroy and finally happened. They say its good for me to break up with you..you who have a wandering eye and uncertainty.
Didn't I love him the way he wanted me to love him? Wasn't I good enough? How does a person force herself to change and please somebody? It wasn't that hard and yet it wasn't easy. It was carried out of love and hope. I do not want to hear others blaming you for our separation. It wasn't like that..we ended up like this because I did him wrong too. Because I loved him too much and held him too tight..and I annoyed him too much. Nous avons séparé..
He was very good to me. There could be no other man who could love me the way he did. He accepted me and cherished me after all my negativity and bad character. He showed me how to be loved and taught me how to love back without a cost. He made a strong woman out of me.
If we were the kind of couple whom people envied, then what went wrong? Where have all our spirits gone? Did we miss something important that we were supposed to prioritize? Show me the old and bright 'you' that I have fell in love with a thousand times before. The worth of loving and understanding you from the very beginning until the end of our lives. I have loved you with all my life and you know this very well. I could not even hate you now even if people are pointing at you. Even the people who cares for me, I could not even side them. Whoever blames you, they are wrong..I just can't hate you. Its not my nature to hate you. The real me was with you where ever in this world we end up and looking at your bright eyes.
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